Some may not know, but my old friend Jeff Rosenbaum has suffered a rapid onset brain-cancer which ended his life yesterday afternoon. Listen to this while you read, if you like:
It is proper, now, to speak of my old friend Jeff Rosenbaum, a man who was like a like a brother to me, over many decades. Sometimes closer, sometimes less so, but always loved as family. He has passed far too soon, his work still in progress, but he has left a legacy that continues to bring joy, wisdom and art to the world.
I met Jeff in the mid-1970s, through the Society for
Creative Anachronism. He was, at the time, living as an Orthodox Jew, and was
the baker of bread for the wonderful medieval feasts that the Barony of the
Cleftlands (SCA in Cleveland Oh) put on. Jeff’s golden challah loaves won him
the honor of royal baker to the king of the Midrealm.
But Jeff enjoyed baking more than bread, we soon found ourselves part of a circle of friends interested in experimental consciousness exploration, using methods ranging from those of Aleister Crowley to those of Timothy Leary. Many an evening was spent in contemplation of such things as the football-shape that the universe must assume when you look at it as a cross-time object, or discussing whether the Abyss was really as close as that tree’s shadow.
But Jeff enjoyed baking more than bread, we soon found ourselves part of a circle of friends interested in experimental consciousness exploration, using methods ranging from those of Aleister Crowley to those of Timothy Leary. Many an evening was spent in contemplation of such things as the football-shape that the universe must assume when you look at it as a cross-time object, or discussing whether the Abyss was really as close as that tree’s shadow.
Jeff remained a student and advocate of traditional Judaism and
Jewish culture all of his life, but his personal devotion didn’t survive his consciousness
studies. Jeff participated in our late-70s experiments in eclectic Paganism,
but in general he was more of a scientist than a religionist. While he surrounded
himself with students and teachers of a variety of esoteric spiritualities he
never personally identified as anything in particular except, perhaps, as a
fellow traveler on the great voyage.
In the spring of 1977 it was Jeff who convened the meeting
that founded the Chameleon Club and, later, the Association for Consciousness Exploration.
The Chameleon Club was brought together by a mutual interest in mind arts and
sciences and a quiet revolutionary optimism that we could make a corner of the
world a cooler, freer, sweeter place. With an agenda drawn largely from “Cosmic
Trigger” we set about hosting events as simple as showing movies at a Case
Western Reserve University venue and as major as bringing Dr. Leary to Cleveland
for the first time as he returned to public speaking in the late 70s. By 1980
we had bought into a house in Cleveland Hts. and were keeping an office as
well, all managed by Jeff’s hard work, supported by the Club.
Tim Leary, Robert Shea, Pat Monaghan, Jeff, Gillie Smythe |
In 1980 the Club made a road-trip to the Pan-Pagan Festival.
Pan-Pagan ’80 remains a historical moment, when 500+ Pagans and Witches
gathered to share community. From that festival were born the majority of the
round of “national festivals” still in business today. The Chameleon Club came
home and immediately began working on what became the Starwood festival. Thirty-five
years later that festival is still rockin’ on.
Starwood became Jeff’s love-child, his farm and his factory. It is a festival that drew on the Pagan community, yet included new science, environmental and political activism and performance art along with anything else cool we could drag into the woods. With Jeff’s guidance over the years the festival grew to provide inspiration, pleasure and learning to thousands of people. Generations of children have grown up with Starwood as their ‘church camp’, bands have been born, religious systems invented, all brewed in the bright, faceted jewel cauldron of the Starwood Festival.
It is entirely likely that none of that would have occurred without Jeff’s vision and direction, but he wouldn’t want me to give the impression that he did it alone. The Chameleon Club, and our later allies and heart-kin, were the family that made Jeff’s plans materialize. Yes, when our lives became busy and balls were dropped it was usually Jeff getting them back into the air. If no one else did it, Jeff did. His personal time, talent and treasure were devoted to making the Starwood community, and promoting Starwood’s ideals of beauty, freedom and growth. However he did it for and with others. Jeff never promoted himself overly. He never wanted “the credit” for the wonderful thing he helped to build, freely sharing that with the many staff and volunteers.
Starwood became Jeff’s love-child, his farm and his factory. It is a festival that drew on the Pagan community, yet included new science, environmental and political activism and performance art along with anything else cool we could drag into the woods. With Jeff’s guidance over the years the festival grew to provide inspiration, pleasure and learning to thousands of people. Generations of children have grown up with Starwood as their ‘church camp’, bands have been born, religious systems invented, all brewed in the bright, faceted jewel cauldron of the Starwood Festival.
It is entirely likely that none of that would have occurred without Jeff’s vision and direction, but he wouldn’t want me to give the impression that he did it alone. The Chameleon Club, and our later allies and heart-kin, were the family that made Jeff’s plans materialize. Yes, when our lives became busy and balls were dropped it was usually Jeff getting them back into the air. If no one else did it, Jeff did. His personal time, talent and treasure were devoted to making the Starwood community, and promoting Starwood’s ideals of beauty, freedom and growth. However he did it for and with others. Jeff never promoted himself overly. He never wanted “the credit” for the wonderful thing he helped to build, freely sharing that with the many staff and volunteers.
Jeff could be counted on for his enduring care and loyalty.
Those of us from the old Chameleon Club are Chosen Kin, mostly as inescapable
to one another now as any big ethnic clan. Jeff was one of the Old Uncles, as
alternately beloved and annoying as any. He could be counted on for a good
joke, a weird movie, a cool new band, a bad joke (did I say that?). He could be
counted on by his friends when times were hard, his quiet charity a boon to
several over the years.
Jeff’s life can serve as a lesson that a devotion to ideas,
to manifesting dreams, to serving a community can be fulfilling, and leave a
lasting legacy. The Starwood Festival will continue, rolling on the solid
chassis of Jeff’s old bus. The enchantment he helped to weave is only made the
wilder by Jeff’s transition from at-the-desk manager to his new life in story
and memory. May his atoms make new beauty, may his work grow new wonder, may
his spirit find joy in its fate.
Thank You Ian! A great tribute to our Brother Jeff!Though I haven't seen him in 20 years he is still in my heart as my Brother as are you! Thank you both for all you did for me in the over a decade we were close friends and the 20 years we have been apart! The Love, Friendship, education and caring that you both gave me helped to shape who I am today.
ReplyDeleteOh, Ian. I am SO very sorry for your personal loss. ANd the community lost a Great One when Jeff left us.
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you, Jeff, the community, and all who knew him and felt his presence. He will be missed, indeed!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully spoken.
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry to hear of Jeff's passing. It's a tremendous loss to you and his close friends and to the counter-culture movement in general. I was thrilled to come to Starwood the few times I did. I remember one of you, either you, Ian, or Jeff, telling me that the aim of Starwood was to keep the spirit of Burning Man alive in the Midwest. Personally, the Starwood I experienced was super-fun and engaging, while BM doesn't call me at all. Long may his sweet legacy live. In love may he return again.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Macha NightMare
Blessings to you,Brother, your sweet honest words brought tears anew to a throat swamped with sorrow. Thank you for posting this.
ReplyDeleteEvery summer I will hear Jeff's voice. Starwood and Jeff are constants in my life....Louis Martinie
ReplyDeleteKnowing Jeff was an honor that means even more to me today. As the miles between Starwood and my new life in South America are great, I am so glad I saw him not very long ago. Too many of my most valued relationships are long distance. Perhaps the Summerland is closer than we realize, because I feel Jeff still among us.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Ian, for this wonderful piece. I'm so sorry that Jeff is gone!
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ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful commentary.. I am left teary eyed..
ReplyDeleteWhat a tribute, Ian. I have only come to know Jeff the past few years, but they have been ones of amazing experiences and great learning thanks to Starwood and to Jeff. I learned more about grace and dignity, selfless love and friendship, in the last few months of Jeff's life then in all my years in end-of-life care. The way many of you rallied to his side, worked to bring him to Starwood so that he could enjoy it one last time...was so humbling. Jeff touched so many people in such profound ways...I can only hope to be half the soul he was.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Ian, for that loving tribute. Jeff certainly is one of the Old Uncles. A great loss to the community.
ReplyDeleteCattle Die, Kinsman Die
ReplyDeleteEvery man is mortal;
But the good name never dies
Of one who has done well
May his name always be remembered with the honor he has earned through his good works
Thanks for the sad news, sadder not to have known, and remembered.
ReplyDeleteA face that was more than a fixture but a creator of my many Magical Star Wood experiences, such a special community. so fantastic yet so very real.
sorry for the loss
Love Bryan
May the Ancestors receive Jeff with open arms, love and support. Remember, he’s waiting just on the other side of veil. To us it will be our lives’ ends when we pass over but to Jeff, it will be mere moments when he sees us once more.
ReplyDeleteEven though It has been 20 years since I last saw Jeff I will miss him. He was a wonderful friend who had sort of a quiet charisma.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to my first Starwoood this year. I will honor him.
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